The pen and the paper scare me when I want to write. My brain was overflowing with thoughts and all I wanted to do was write them down. So I couldn't do it with a pen and a piece of paper even though I was raised with them. So I thought writing something on a computer would be better. In some ways it is. But in some ways it isn't. so maybe it is not that I cannot write with a pen and a paper, but maybe it is that the thought of writing scares me. Being really, really scared of something is not a feeling I usually have. Understanding really what fear means. Something like writing isn't scary, but it can be compared to something that is.